Refreshed after Spiritual Travel

I write a blog about travel for women twice a week. I often talk about destinations that are spiritual and places that can reawaken you and reenergize you. That place for me is Hawaii. I spent 11 days there towards the end of January and it was exactly what I needed. Time to reconnect with the Earth and become one with nature. I needed to be reminded of what is important in this all consuming World of social media, internet, money and running around like crazy people. I needed to be shown that you do not have to live like that to be happy! And I needed some soul searching time to realize what I really want out of life and what will make me happy. It worked, I came home feeling refreshed, calm and happy! Three days later, I am starting to see the old reactions, emotions and fears creep up - like that little voice that tells me I cannot do it, I am crazy, I am too late to the game.

I will not listen. I will spend each day remembering my moments in Hawaii and putting that newfound energy and excitement towards my personal goals. And remembering that each of us are special in our own way - before all of the success, notability and money gets in the way!

It is a new year and I am still lost

We are 6 days into the New Year and I feel lost and unsure of things. I am currently missing CES - the biggest show of the year for the industry that I actually know - and I a missing opportunities to be in front of media and companies that I could potentially get new work from! But why do I care - this is not my dream job, party of my new blog goal, nothing, but yet I feel sad and down that I am not there. I feel down that I am spending the first week of the New Year in my house. I have not left for 4 days. Granted, I am a bit sick which is keeping my energy down, but this is just not who I am and what makes me feel like a whole person.

I think I need an attitude adjustment. How do I do this?

Feeling Postive

Today is a good day! Every time I think of my new blog - Inspire Me - I get excited. Every day I find more and more amazing women and men I would like to interview. People doing amazing and inspiring things that can hopefully inspire others to go and do what they were meant to do on this Earth. People who are doing things outside of the box and who are pushing through the fear to live a life full of passion and excitement. I cannot wait to get this project started - I think that is a sign that I have to continue down this road. It is really gelling in my mind and soul...and those on my advisory board are giving me positive thumbs up that I am doing down the right path.

I have a name, a URL, a new Mac computer - now I have to get the site created and order my interview equipment. I really feel good about this project! I hope it opens up the doors to my creative soul!

Now, how to bottle this feeling up and have it around every day!

New adventure = a struggle to start

All of my life, I have known that there is another career path out there for me. I have done every form of marketing communications possible including public relations which is my current profession. PR is the one role I have excelled at (I should say the one I have felt the most succesful and satisfied with). I also loved event planning, but always felt I needed something with more depth. With PR, I was able to accomplish that need for depth in my work but I then found PR lacking the satisfaction of creating something I could feel proud of. And PR for a major coorporation (which is what I did for four years and where I found the height of career success on a certain plain) is much different then doing PR as a consultant and working from home and having very little access to the one area of PR that you do well - face-to-face interaction with media. So, here I sit, still a PR consultant with the perfect window of opportunity to pursue my real passion of being a TV interviewer and I am bored, scared and feeling like a complete loser. I am not super busy work wise and starting a new poject to get exposure in the World of interviewing is a scary place when doing it alone and having to buy new equipment. I sit here day in and day out, with limited interaction with people - my main source of energy - almost paralyzed from doing anything. I watch too much TV, spend hours roaming the social networking sites to keep me entertained and somewhat connected to the real World and yet I feel I have all of the tools I need to get going with my new career path. I have a great network, experience in the Worlds of business, media, writing, travel and TV. I am outgoing and very good with people. And yet, I find myself wasting away my days feeling envious of women my age and younger who are doing amazing things in their life and doubting my abilities, comparing myself to others which just pushes my feelings of motivation and excitement farther away from reality.

I am struggling to find the fire inside to really go make my dreams a reality - it is almost as if I need a boss to keep me on track with my deadline, someone to keep me focused and true to what I am doing. So I am stuck pondering - do I get a new job in PR in the entertainment industry so I can get ingrained in LA culture? Or do I keep consulting, making things happen in that area (becoming a sort of rainmaker which is just not my forte ) and really make my blog idea (currently called Inspire Me) a reality where I interview people who have forged their new paths and won?

This is the question that I am facing right now. The thing is, once I pull the trigger I know I can do anything I put my mind to, but right now, I am holding myself back, not believing in myself.

I need to overcome this and make this new path happen...I need to remember it is the journey that is important not the destination. And I need to stop questioning and just start moving forward, anything can happen.

I will chronicle my journey here and I will welcome any and all advice from anyone who has thoughts on this!

In the meantime, how the heck do I get myself out of the house on a daily basis and make an impact in this World???