All of my life, I have known that there is another career path out there for me. I have done every form of marketing communications possible including public relations which is my current profession. PR is the one role I have excelled at (I should say the one I have felt the most succesful and satisfied with). I also loved event planning, but always felt I needed something with more depth. With PR, I was able to accomplish that need for depth in my work but I then found PR lacking the satisfaction of creating something I could feel proud of. And PR for a major coorporation (which is what I did for four years and where I found the height of career success on a certain plain) is much different then doing PR as a consultant and working from home and having very little access to the one area of PR that you do well - face-to-face interaction with media. So, here I sit, still a PR consultant with the perfect window of opportunity to pursue my real passion of being a TV interviewer and I am bored, scared and feeling like a complete loser. I am not super busy work wise and starting a new poject to get exposure in the World of interviewing is a scary place when doing it alone and having to buy new equipment. I sit here day in and day out, with limited interaction with people - my main source of energy - almost paralyzed from doing anything. I watch too much TV, spend hours roaming the social networking sites to keep me entertained and somewhat connected to the real World and yet I feel I have all of the tools I need to get going with my new career path. I have a great network, experience in the Worlds of business, media, writing, travel and TV. I am outgoing and very good with people. And yet, I find myself wasting away my days feeling envious of women my age and younger who are doing amazing things in their life and doubting my abilities, comparing myself to others which just pushes my feelings of motivation and excitement farther away from reality.
I am struggling to find the fire inside to really go make my dreams a reality - it is almost as if I need a boss to keep me on track with my deadline, someone to keep me focused and true to what I am doing. So I am stuck pondering - do I get a new job in PR in the entertainment industry so I can get ingrained in LA culture? Or do I keep consulting, making things happen in that area (becoming a sort of rainmaker which is just not my forte ) and really make my blog idea (currently called Inspire Me) a reality where I interview people who have forged their new paths and won?
This is the question that I am facing right now. The thing is, once I pull the trigger I know I can do anything I put my mind to, but right now, I am holding myself back, not believing in myself.
I need to overcome this and make this new path happen...I need to remember it is the journey that is important not the destination. And I need to stop questioning and just start moving forward, anything can happen.
I will chronicle my journey here and I will welcome any and all advice from anyone who has thoughts on this!
In the meantime, how the heck do I get myself out of the house on a daily basis and make an impact in this World???
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